Charlie Sheen Says Testosterone Cream Turned Him into a 'Raving Lunatic' Before “Two and a Half Men” Dismissal

While Charlie Sheen's struggles pinch narcotics person been well-documented, it was a thoroughfare ineligible topical, he writes successful his caller memoir, that was to blasted for nan meltdown that costs him his starring domiciled connected Two and a Half Men in March 2011.

In his debut memoir, The Book of Sheen (out Sept. 9), Sheen writes that he discontinue narcotics acold turkey aft Les Moonves (then nan caput of CBS) visited his location and offered to alert him to rehab.

Quitting, he writes, "didn't spell arsenic planned."

"What I chose not to discontinue was nan testosterone pick that I was slathering connected successful mind-altering gobs for illustration a f----- Pond's commercial," he writes successful nan memoir, per Entertainment Weekly. "After all, it was 'legal.' I'd been utilizing it to get my assemblage backmost into shape, not knowing that astatine nan aforesaid clip I was being shape-shifted."

He continues: "That supplier is known to metabolize into nan identical psych floor plan an anabolic steroid will produce. Anyone who bore witnesser to nan raging demon I melded pinch will hopefully glean immoderate clarity for what my authorities of mind was up against."

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Sheen adds successful his book that he isn't "making excuses aliases asking for a pass," but "putting it retired location arsenic a item that whitethorn person been confused pinch a laundry database of different imaginable suspects."

"I've heard awesome things astir nan supplier erstwhile utilized responsibly, but let's support it existent — drugs and responsible are 2 words I ne'er made [a] wont of cramming into nan aforesaid sentence," he writes.

After Sheen, now 60, was fired from nan deed sitcom, he went connected to springiness his infamous 20/20 interview, wherever he claimed to person “tiger blood” successful his veins.

Elsewhere successful his memoir, Sheen writes that shot subordinate Brian Wilson first gave him nan building he would later usage successful that interview.

"I was truthful jacked connected nan Krazy Kreme, those phrases went into my encephalon and stayed connected a loop conscionable beneath nan surface," Sheen writes successful nan book, per EW. "They were diligent pinch 1 oculus connected nan door, waiting for nan correct customer to show up, beryllium seated, and casually inquire astir nan specials."

In 2017, Sheen yet sewage cleanable for bully and told PEOPLE successful a caller exclusive interview that he had to beryllium fresh for sobriety.

"You person to beryllium willing," he said, adding that he wanted to beryllium nan benignant of dada his kids (Cassandra, 41, Sami, 21, Lola, 20, and twins Max and Bob, 16) could trust on. He hasn’t had a driblet of intoxicant since.

“I support a [mental list] of nan worst, astir shameful things I’ve done, and I tin look astatine that successful my caput if I consciousness for illustration having a drink,” he told PEOPLE.

In summation to his caller memoir, Sheen appears successful nan two-part Netflix documentary, aka Charlie Sheen, out Sept. 10.