Lorde Reveals How She Feels About Her “Solar Power ”Album Now: ‘I Don’t Think This Is Me’

Lorde's creator travel is afloat of ups and downs.

In a caller question and reply connected Jake Shane's Therapuss podcast, nan New Zealand singer-songwriter said astir making 2021's Solar Power album, which received mixed reviews from fans and critics, and really she feels astir nan task today.

The "What Was That" creator opened up astir emotion a spot "overwhelmed" by nan occurrence of 2017's Melodrama, for which she embarked connected a awesome arena tour. "This point that was my hobby that I did aft schoolhouse is now, like, my employment, and I employment each these different people," she recalled. "It’s gotten excessively big. Like, I’m a kid."

Lorde admitted to emotion "scared" astatine nan time. "I was getting a small spot older. The caller harvest were coming in, and I was like, ‘Oh my God. I don’t cognize if I want to do this astatine this level,'" she said.

In bid to reconnect pinch herself, nan Grammy victor "went location to New Zealand" and "got a dog," noting that she "had this infinitesimal of being like, ‘I don’t cognize if I want to do each of that. I’m going to beryllium this woman who’s benignant of disconnected nan representation and really mysterious and moreover much distant.’"

She declared, "Solar Power came from a spot of emotion very joyful and chill."

The acquisition of touring nan "endless hardcore music" of Melodrama on specified a ample standard felt "very intense" for Lorde. "I conscionable wanted thing that felt very ray and easy aft that," she said of Solar Power.

Supported by singles including its title track, "Stoned astatine nan Nail Salon," "Mood Ring" and "Fallen Fruit," Solar Power charted astatine No. 5 connected nan Billboard 200 albums floor plan but didn't nutrient immoderate hits arsenic large arsenic "Royals" aliases "Green Light."

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"I emotion Solar Power so much, and I genuinely needed to make it. I wouldn’t beryllium present pinch different medium if I hadn’t made Solar Power, but I deliberation it showed maine that you person nary prime but to beryllium who you’re expected to be," said Lorde.

"Me disappearing and being each wafty and connected nan beach," she added, "I was like, ‘Actually, I don’t deliberation this is me.’"

Ultimately, Lorde realized she's "meant to make these bangers that f--- america each up and conscionable rip done a show ground."

"I don’t deliberation I’m expected to vibe out, and it was benignant of sad for maine ‘cause I emotion to vibe out," she explained. "That is maine to my core. In an alternate beingness wherever I conscionable lived successful New Zealand and worked astatine an integrated workplace aliases something, that would beryllium my vibe. But it’s not nan life for me, I think, correct now."

Lorde's upcoming album, Virgin, comes retired Friday, June 27.