“Love Island USA'”s Yulissa Escobar Tells 'Real Story' of How She Was Kicked off the Show Over Racial Slurs

Yulissa Escobar is revealing really her abrupt and unexplained Love Island USA exit really happened.

The 27-year-old was among nan first group of islanders who entered nan Fiji villa successful nan play 7 premiere, but she was removed softly from nan show successful nan 2nd section without overmuch of an mentation from Peacock.

Her exit was nan consequence of resurfaced videos of her utilizing group slurs, including nan N-word, connected 2 abstracted podcast appearances.

Since her exit, Yulissa has not expanded connected nan logistics of really she near nan villa — aliases what she was told — until now.

It started disconnected arsenic a "regular" time successful nan villa earlier she was called distant by a producer.

In a TikTok video, Yulissa admitted that she "can't stock definite things, but I will stock nan mostly of what happened" to group nan grounds consecutive astir her exit.

"So, regular a-- day. I did not aftermath up successful nan mediate of nan night, they didn't get maine successful nan f------ morning. They didn't resistance my a-- retired of bed," she said.

The time started pinch her partner, Ace Greene, made her meal successful nan greeting and she had aggregate conversations pinch islanders, including Taylor Williams, while nan full villa was awaiting Cierra and Charlie's bombshell arrival.

She said she was "just starting to person fun" erstwhile she was pulled out.

Yulissa was called to nan beforehand and assumed it was for a confessional, but she was met by a shaper instead, who asked her to return disconnected her mic. "I kinda figured thing superior was happening," she recalled. "I honestly sewage scared, I thought thing was happening pinch a family personnel aliases something. I didn't cognize what was going on. They didn't really show maine anything, they conscionable said, you know, a video resurfaced [on the] net and it's not looking excessively good."

They didn't specify what nan video successful mobility was, though, truthful she was confused. "Honestly, I wasn't moreover crying aliases anything, I conscionable wanted to cognize what was going on."

After 2 days successful a Fiji hotel, she sewage her telephone backmost and learned what nan net had seen.

She said she was "losing my f----- mind because I didn't cognize what was going on" while successful nan edifice without entree to her phone, because astatine that point, she still didn't cognize what video nan producers were referring to.

When she yet sewage her phone, she said it "was a batch to return in."

"I was like, f---, no. I can't judge group deliberation I'm racist. I mean, I get it, I said a connection that I should person not said, but man, I wish I would've ne'er said that," she said. "It is what it is. I can't spell backmost successful time. I americium sorry that I said that word."

In nan caption of nan TikTok, she wrote, "Plot twist: I wasn't dragged retired successful nan dark. I walked retired successful wide daylight caput high, lashes on."

Yulissa issued a nationalist apology for her usage of nan group slur successful nan days pursuing her exit.

In a lengthy Instagram post connected June 6, Yulissa said she wanted to "address it directly" and "apologize for utilizing a connection I had nary correct successful using."

"In those clips, I utilized a connection I ne'er should’ve used, a group slur. I utilized it ignorantly, not afloat knowing nan weight, history, aliases symptom down it," she wrote. "I wasn’t trying to beryllium violative aliases harmful, but I admit now that volition doesn’t excuse impact. And nan effect of that connection is real. It’s tied to generations of trauma, and it is not excavation to use."

Escobar explained that erstwhile she did nan podcast, she "was speaking casually successful conversation, not reasoning profoundly aliases critically astir what I was saying."

"But that doesn’t return distant from really incorrect it was. The truth is, I didn’t cognize amended then, but I do now. I’ve taken nan clip to reflect, to learn, and to turn from that moment."

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