“Sister Wives”: Christine Brown Says She 'Felt Like Slapping' Janelle for Bragging About Being Close to Her Grandkids

Christine Brown is missing her kids.

On nan Oct. 19 section of Sister Wives, she struggled to set aft her boy Paedon decided to move to North Carolina to beryllium person to Janelle.

Christine told her hubby David Woolley while connected a locomotion that she's "missing" each of her kids and that having them surviving pinch her was "way excessively short" of a clip period.

"Paedon conscionable moved to North Carolina this morning. Just barely," Christine, 53, said successful a confessional. "There was a clip erstwhile astir of my kids were correct adjacent to me. And past I joined David, and I consciousness for illustration we had this huge, afloat experience. And now half my kids are gone."

Then she revealed to David what's really bugging her: "I conscionable consciousness for illustration — I conscionable must beryllium a bad mom."

"No, you're not a bad mom," he reassured her. "They each person to turn up."

She couldn't thief but consciousness for illustration it was much than that, though. "They're picking Janelle alternatively [of me]."

Then, successful a confessional, Christine recalled a peculiarly affectional speech she had pinch Janelle, who lives successful North Carolina. "One of nan times we were talking astir moving, she's like, 'And I person each nan grandkids surviving pinch me, blah blah blah.' And I was like, reasoning inside, 'You request to unopen up correct now.'"

"That was nan infinitesimal wherever I felt for illustration slapping her," Christine admitted. "How could she opportunity that?"

Grandkids aside, Christine and Janelle's narration is changing successful different ways. She told her hubby she and her erstwhile sister woman "haven't talked...for a while."

The main point they are successful connection astir it their business. "I deliberation business stuff, pinch america separating, for illustration we person pinch our business, there's been much things that we've had to fig out, ironically," she told David.

"Janelle and I activity a business together and there's been a batch of changes wrong nan past mates of months. We utilized to tally it much together, but really successful life, we utilized to do everything together and we raised our kids together," Christine explained of wherever things guidelines betwixt her and Janelle, 56, correct now. "And truthful it's conscionable 1 much measurement distant from each other."

Christine besides told David that she knows she's "hurt [Janelle's] feelings a small bit" but they're "doing things much abstracted now, and it's conscionable — I want to beryllium much successful complaint of my business now."

When her hubby suggested that they're "getting competitive" pinch each other, she didn't disagree.

"We're trying to support each other, too. But competition? Yeah, I ever for illustration a bully competition. Good competition's good."

In a confessional, she added of her move pinch Janelle, "We learned really to do things together, and now it's almost for illustration we're learning really to do things apart. But it's okay, because, you know, you person to move connected and we really person to unrecorded our life for nan champion for us."

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Sister Wives airs Sundays astatine 10 p.m. ET connected TLC.